#mentally unstable ex-gf

[thatoneguy56fanfic]

Day 14: Creepy + Left For Dead

For @orangepanic’s Whumptolktober! I know I missed a lot of days, but I finally had an idea for this. Also, trigger warning: this fic includes talk of stalking and mental health disorders, plus a mention of drugging and kidnapping. So don’t read if you don’t like that kind of thing. I’m sorry in advance for my fellow Asami-lovers.

I woke up feeling confused and groggy. How much had I drunk at that party? I wondered, reaching up to rub my face. That’s when I noticed that I couldn’t really move. My body felt strangely heavy and sluggish. What the fuck?

“Oh, good. You’re awake!” The voice made my body stiffen, and I looked up to see my ex-girlfriend, Asami Sato standing in the kitchen of my apartment. This couldn’t be happening! How had she found me? I had been so careful. I had no social media anymore and I’d even gotten my lease under a different name.

“Still feeling a bit groggy, huh?” Asami said, a creepy smile on her face. Her voice sounded way too sweet. I knew that tone, and it made my heart race. “That’s okay. Don’t worry, it’ll wear off in a few hours.”

“What will?” I asked, finally finding my voice.

“Oh, I just gave you something to help you relax, that’s all.” Asami said, walking towards me. I could only watch helplessly, my body refusing to listen to my brain's commands. “You know how emotional you get, sweetie. I just wanted to have a conversation without you doing anything unreasonable, you know? You understand, right?”

Okay, so she seemed to be having one of her episodes. She was probably off her meds too. I could handle this, I just had to be careful and calm until whatever she’d given me had worn off. Then I’d get away or call for help.

“You’re right. I’m sorry for being unreasonable before.” I said, choosing my words and tone carefully. Asami’s smile widened.

“See! I knew you’d understand.” She said, climbing onto my lap, straddling my legs. I felt my heart skip a couple of beats. “I just wanted to talk, Korbear. I knew if I could just talk to you, I’d get you to understand my side. But you were being so unreasonable.” She ran her fingers over my cheek gently. The use of her old nickname for me made me tense even more. “Moving out without telling me. Getting that pesky restraining order. But what really hurt was you convincing my dad to put me in that psychiatric hold. That really hurt my feelings.”

“I’m sorry, Asami.” I said, feeling proud of how steady my voice sounded. I just had to stay calm. “You’re right. That was really rude of me. I should’ve just let you tell me your side. It wasn’t fair of me to do what I did.”

“You have no idea how relieved I am to hear that.” Asami said, placing a hand over her chest in relief. “I was so worried that those irksome friends of yours had put lies in your head again. Like they did when they convinced you that I was isolating you. I mean can you believe that? Me? Isolating you? Come on, that’s just ridiculous!”

“You kind of did, Asami.” I said gently. “You didn’t let me leave our house.”

“You didn’t need to! That’s not isolation!” Asami said, her voice rising defensively. “I love you, Korbear. I just wanted to take care of you, that’s not a bad thing right?”

“But what about my job? Or my friends and family?” I replied. “You tried to take those from me.”

“You didn’t need to work!” Asami said, placing her hands on my shoulders. “I’m rich, you could’ve just lived off my money. You’ll never have to worry about working when you’re with me, you know that. As for your friends, well they’re just jealous of what we have.”

“And my family?” I asked.

“They never really liked me anyway. So who cares what they think. They’re obviously going to say anything to make me look bad.” She replied, pouting. “Don’t tell me that you’re believing their lies again are you, Korbear?”

“Asami, I need you to listen to me.” I said, choosing my words carefully. “Have you been taking your meds?”

Her eyes darkened and her smile dropped slightly. I felt my heart plummet. Did I push too far?

“That’s not very nice of you, Korbear.” Asami said, her tone slightly less cheerful. “Here I am, surprising you on your birthday, and this is how you thank me? Of course I haven’t taken them. I don’t need them, sweetie. You know that! Those stupid doctors don’t know anything. I’m perfectly sane. They just can’t understand how much I love you. We were meant for each other, Korbear.”

I couldn’t help it any longer. She was clearly in some kind of mental distress, and I could feel my patience growing thin.

“Asami, you can’t just stop taking your pills.” I said, slowly. “It’s dangerous-“

“Of course I’m not taking them!” Asami shouted, cutting me off. “Because I’m not crazy! I don’t need any pills, I keep telling everyone that!” She got off of me, breathing hard and pacing. Spirits, she was more unstable than I’d realized. Cold fear started to claw at my chest. Suddenly, she stopped pacing and marched back over to me. She leaned down and gripped my chin tightly.

“That was very rude of you, Korbear.” She said, her voice low and dangerous. “I am not dangerous. You know I’m not. I would never hurt you, I love you!”

“You’re right! You’re right!” I said, genuinely afraid now. I’d never seen her like this before. Sure, she’d always been extremely possessive and stalker-level obsessed with me. But this was new, and far more intimidating than her previous behavior. “I’m so sorry. Of course you’re not dangerous. I shouldn’t have said that, please forgive me, Sams.” I added, using my old nickname for her in an attempt to appease her.

“Of course I forgive you, silly girl!” Asami said, her face brightening again. She smiled broadly again, patting my face affectionately. “I could never stay mad at you, you know that. But don’t ever say anything like that again, okay? That really hurt my feelings.”

“I won’t, I promise.” I said.

“Good. Because the ride home would be so awkward if you did.” She replied.

“Ride home?” I asked in confusion.

“Of course! You didn’t think I’d let you stay here, did you?” Asami scoffed, as if it was the most obvious thing ever. The thought of her taking me anywhere filled me with dread. “It was such a pain in the ass to find you, Korbear. You really didn’t make it easy on me. But you should know by now that I’m so much smarter than you. You didn’t really think that you could ever hide from me, did you?”

[enfinizatics]

i’m in a new relationship, for the first time in two years actually, and on the one hand i’m so happy because my gf is really nice and understanding and a good person and so beautiful. but on the other hand i’m so scared that she will leave me because of my bipolar and adhd, like my ex did and who’s the reason i haven’t dated anyone ever since she broke up with me. and the thing is. i’m medicated, in therapy and very much keeping myself on my toes to make sure my bipolar doesn’t hurt anyone but me and yet i still feel like no one will ever truly love me because i’m doomed to be ‘the crazy one’ and “you’re great but i thought it would look differently” one and i just want it to stop. i want to be seen as a normal person. i hate that when i get into a relationship i have to go through a “things you should know about before dating me” conversation or i’ll be seen as a liar. i hate it all so much.

[jenyifer]

Hum I realized I haven’t shared any of my book recs on here. I know I should watch new bl. I plan on finding something in June.

Since I got broken up I’ve been reading lgbt books. My ex gf had been showing me things about being lgbt that I had never imagined before and without her I still wanted to learn to experience different stories. So I used my love of fantasy and sci-fi and started listening and reading as much as I could. I don’t really care for overly spicy things but I like when the characters are realistic adults. So keep that in mind with this list.

1. The House in the Cerulean Sea 10/10 Fantasy great characters and mc growth. Found family always gets me. The ending was perfect. I’ve listened to it 15 times and forced my parents and uncle to read it. I’m excited for book 2.

2. The Darkness Outside of Us. 10/10 Sci-fi Space. This book made me feel so much. Surprised me. Had me gasping for air in my cube to the point people had to ask if I was okay. Had me running to the car to cry as I listened to the last part. Go in blind and enjoy the space and gay of it all.

3. Dark Rise 10/10 Classic Fantasy It is incredibly rare any book surprises me. Most of the time I can guess the plot a mile away. Dark Rise hit me over the head a couple times had me crying. But it was so epic and adventurous reminded of the feeling I had reading David Eddings as a child. (Not that lgbt as I would have liked but… it was there I assume book 2 a lot more)

4. Iron Widow 10/10 Sci-fi Mechs Fantasy Post Apocalypse I adore a mechs and history. It was extremely exciting. I adore the main couple even though main girl is actually mentally unstable but you love her anyways.

5. The Extraordinaries 9/10 Superhero. The main character is lovably stupid aside from his ADHD which I can relate on. I loved the lesbian side couple. The story was fun felt like it was written for the early college me who loved superheroes.

5. Adam Binder Series White Trash Warlock 9/10. Urban Fantasy. It gives me flash backs to Harry Dresden and Iron Druid but not in the obvious way just in vibe. I love main characters being country. I’m from Mississippi not Oklahoma but I can relate to being a gay in a small town moving to a big city. I love the main couple. The mystery magic system was interesting. I wish it had a bit more romance actually. Just because I love the main couple and side characters a lot and want happiness. I wish I could get more people to read this one it’s wonderful a lot better than a lot of urban str8 fantasy I’ve read and it was my main category for years. The mystery element was decent. I need to start book 3.

6. Ocean’s Echo 8.5/10 sci-fi mystery the main characters are… so wonderful. They are extreme but I love them so much. I’ll protect them to the end of days. I have this book over it’s… I guess in the same universe book Winter’s Orbit because I think the mystery suspense is more intense in Ocean’s echo also much more spacey sci-fi. Romance is also arranged marriage but is VERY different from winters orbit. I wish… I wish this book wasn’t associated with the other because it gets unfairly compared because the narrator is the same etc but Ocean’s Echo is great in its own right and is definitely not a copy

7. Winter’s Orbit 8.5/10 MYSTERY sci-fi edging on fantasy. Arranged marriage. Slow burn. These characters are also 10/10 I love them. I have experienced an abusive relationship before and appreciated seeing a character with the scars a similar past. Often if a character is portrayed as in an abusive relationship they focus on the event but it effects Everything in your world. Even now I have these scars after 8 years. I loved the mystery it was the main focus which I liked. The romance felt natural.

8. Fragile Remedy 8/10 one of the first books I read it made me cry and was a good single dystopian gem. Had a real… divergent hunger games kind of vibe to the world from what I remember.

9. Lightning struck heart 7/10 classic fantasy this is what I said on my insta at the time “It is an extremely comedic fantasy adventure with wizards, unicorns, knights, and dragons. Right up my alley! However the ending was disappointing. I'll listen to the next book in the series and hope it improves. Just found character arch unbelievable in last chapters.”

10. A wish upon a star by tj klune ^follow up books I read like 4 of them 5/10 I did stop listening to it this is what I said on my insta “Well I continued listening the tales of verania series and made it to the original end of the series. I'd say if you want a gay fantasy comedy without too much thinking Listen to the audio. Narrator is the biggest part of why I didn't quit. Idk if I'll read the other books though it is very friendship is magic smooth brain ideas I've read”

Unable to finish (been desperately trying to find a lesbian story and finding nothing)

Girl, Serpent, Thorn 4/10 my review from insta “Unable to finish it. The world is interesting. The first 3rd seemed promising but after major conflict the writing goes way down. But the MC doesn't grow. The f/f is so shallow it made me roll my.eyes until I had to stop listening. Wanted the bad guy to win and kill everyone”

The Midnight Girls. So intensely annoying and childish. I couldn’t do it I think I made it to chapter 3 but it was a struggle.

In the ravenous dark. I got to one third of the audio book and had to stop. The universe was okay but main girl was very annoying. Was kind of hoping her and the ghost would be together not… not the weird bullshit that was going on. Idk what the end of the book was going to be but it was not for me.

I’ll post another with my current to read list. I’m really going through them now because I have to drive two hours a day to and from work. Give me your suggestions though please thank you.

[goldenharmony]

Aqua/Kana and Hikaru/Ai parallels - OnK Spoilers

I really feel like Oshi no Ko is trying to parallel both dynamics against one another. 

1. Both of them have the same age gap of 1 year with the girl being a year older. 

This might not seem like much, but part of me didn’t get why OnK chose Hikaru to be 15 specifically when he was with Ai. Majority of anime ships either have the girl and guy be the same age or the guy be older. Additionally, it would be “easier” to explain Hikaru aiding a murder if he was a little older. Considering how a bunch of people thought it was possible that Ai was groomed by an older man, it came as a shock when it turned out that Hikaru was the one that was groomed at age 11. 

2.  Idol who fits the "ideal girl" criteria of Aqua's who is B-Komachi's center, and has feelings for the mentally unstable actor 

Many people have pointed out the similarities of Kana/Ai and people have also joked that Aqua is becoming like his father (a bit of stretch since the worst thing he did was put a tracker on his ex-gf), but combined with the fact that 2 sets of parallels are also involved in ships makes it feel like these relationships are meant to parallel one another. 

3. Hikaru eventually led to Ai's demise, but maybe for OnK, Kana will pull Aqua out of his demise. 

Hikaru is the reason that Ai died, and Kana has had numerous hints to being the light of the series. I don’t think Aqua is going to lead to Kana’s ruin, but instead this ship might end up subverting what happened to his parents, with Kana pulling Aqua out of his downward spiral. 

[waterdeepthroat]

bg3 cast, according to my partner who has not played it:

astarion: zesty vampire

halsin: furry. this the bear you can fuck?

shadowheart: cool makeup. looks like she could beat me up

wyll: nice eye. probably has monster-related ptsd

karlach: ok but would sleeping with her set my dick on fire

lae’zel: crazy frog?? the grinch?? what the fuck is wrong with her nose

minthara: basic white girl

gale: jaskier but more manly

jaheira: strong independent woman who dont need no man. would let her dom me

minsc: FUCKING JOE ROGAN

orin: definitely a lil mentally unstable

gortash: he doesn’t look very straight. looks like he could’ve had a respectable career if he didn’t do heroin that one time

ketheric: corrupt politician. ex-paladin who fell from grace (HOLY SHIT??)

aylin: bro why is her face so beat up

isobel: definitely not straight. big titty goth gf

[chaosabound]

MORE AU THINGIES YIPPEE

This is just going to go into more detail about the main 5 and the au, and at the end is art soo yippee!

Remember, this. Is. A. Crossover. Au. And that I'm probably not the best writer, so yeah.

Characters (The main 5 anyway)

Boyfriend

The “main” character

Rapper

19

Bi

4’11”

Girlfriend’s s/o

Pico’s Ex

Cocky

Stupid

Autistic

Likes: Gf, Rapping, S*x(No duh)

Dislikes: Gf dying, Her parents, Frieza’s murder attempts

Girlfriend

The Daughter of Mommy Mearest and Daddy Dearest

PopStar, Music player

19

Bi

5’ 6”

Boyfriend’s s/o

Unknown Ex

Kind

Caring

Autistic

Likes: Bf, Music, Her friends

Dislikes: Her parents attempts to kill Bf, Frieza’s attempts to kill Bf, Mentions of the deal

Frieza

The former Emperor of the universe

Bi + Asexual

5’2”

Single

Son of King Cold(Who is dead btw), and younger brother of Cooler

Cold

Quick to anger

Tired

Racist to an extent

Likes: Power, Control, Wine, Just some peace and quiet

Dislikes: Being powerless, Gf stopping him, Not being in control, Saiyans, Being called a “Powerbottom”, The deal

Pico

The hitman

20

Bi or Gay

5’ 1”

Single

Boyfriend’s Ex

Harboring a criminal

Friends with Nene and Darnell

Serious

Stern

Snarky

Schizophrenic

Likes: Getting hits, Earning Money, his friends safety, His guns

Dislikes: Not getting hits, Losing too much money, his friends getting hurt

Frost

The Criminal

5’2”

Pan

Single

Trust issues yippee

Anxious

A liar

Nicer than Frieza, at least

Is able to tell if someone is lying, basically a walking lie detector test

multilingual

Likes:his safety, life of luxury

Dislikes: His reputation, Frieza(For now at least), being on the run, Nene(She scares him)

Summary of basic ass story

Sooo anyways, let’s say this happens like sometime after the T.o.p and like a month after the base game of fnf. Bf and Gf were chilling when Gf was notified about someone coming over temporarily because of an arrangement. Surprise, surprise, it’s Frieza. Everything was chill, at least till Bf did something stupid, yet Frieza was forced to put up with it. Little did the trio know that the date Frieza would leave was delayed indefinitely.

Meanwhile Frost somehow found his way to universe 7 (Look, when fnf is involved, anything can happen) and ran into the trio of Pico, Darnell, and Nene. Long story short, Frost was almost seriously injured before Pico stopped the attack. Seeing potential in the blue ice-jin, Pico partners up with Frost to help make his job easier to a degree.

(give me a break, not only am I tired while writing this, I can barely write for shit bc idk autism, these aren’t exact events so y’all can do your own twists)

Relations yippee

(Also of the main 5 bc this post is long enough)

Bf + Gf : Dating soo pretty obv

Bf + Pico: Ex’s but on good terms

Bf + Frost: Meh, Bf mistook Frost for Frieza when they first met soo idk

Bf + Frieza: Bf has almost died several times to this mf, Frieza also started to call him a monkey after he did something stupid

Gf + Frieza: Friends?

Gf + Pico: Friends! Gf wants to help him with the whole Frost situation

Gf + Frost: Acquaintances, mixed feelings on Frost’s end

Pico + Frost: Partners in crime basically

Pico + Frieza: Don’t talk much, but they chill

Frieza + Frost: Strained to hell and back. But somehow getting better.

Other facts!

-The characters harbor traits from the people who were them in the stupid vrc thing (Ex. Frieza doesn’t really get much sleep, and possibly is very mentally unstable)

-Other series would come into play! It is a crossover au and fnf, anything can happen!

-Gf’s parents are overprotective

-In the vrc thing, most of, if not everyone is played by autistic people

-The vrc thing aint canon, just inspired this

-Pico and Frost sometimes stay with Bf, Gf, and Frieza

-Gf made Frieza play Hating Simulator… it was an interesting experience

-Bf and Gf are Hatsune Miku fans, while everyone else is more fond of Uta.

Annnd that’s all for now! Btw you can ask stuff about characters and I can answer them to the best of my ability, with drawings as well! Anything for motivation ig.

ANYWAYS, tine for the art!

Pretty explanatory

Gf, but with wings! She doesn't use them often.

The Hating Simulator incident. Also Senpai reveal hello-

Bro hyper, redraw of the results screen of fnf.

Annnnd here is a thing I probably will never expand upon, considering I don't have the motivation to write anything sooo... idk. Also for those who have seen Gamera 3: Revenge of Iris.. hi.

K now I'm done, I'll see yall again when I randomly come alive with motivation.

Edit: not this taking over 3 tags 😭

[shipcestuous-two]

Ep. 4 of ShipCestFan's IRL Observations (steps - b/s; f/d) (submission)

Hey, Shipcestuous. ShipCestFan back with another episode of “ShipCestFan’s IRL Observations”. LOL

So far, we’ve covered my ex-gf and her family in college, along with my college roommate and his sister. Now, we fast-forward two decades. In that time, I married and had a family. But by 2006, I was divorced. I had joint 50% custody of my kids so I had time to date. And when you wear shipper-goggles, many things are revealed on dates. LOL

About a year after I divorced, my daughter’s kindergarten teacher asked me out. (My daughter had moved into first grade.) Let’s call her Mary (none of the names I use are ever real). When she asked me out, I was intrigued but perplexed as I knew her to be married.

As we got to know each other outside of the school, Mary informed me that the reason she had separated was because her 18 year old, biological daughter had accused her stepfather (Mary’s 2nd husband) of inappropriate behavior. Upon hearing this, I was upset for my new girlfriend and her daughter. But then I met the daughter. Let’s call her…Tiffany.  What I began to suspect was that Tiffany was a devious (perhaps mentally unstable) young woman who played men to get what she wanted or maybe just for the thrill of it. And her mom, my girlfriend, believed her otherwise innocent, doe-eyed behavior.

Mary and I dated for about a year. During that time, there was a very nasty criminal court case between her soon-to-be-ex-husband and DHS which had intervened since Tiffany (who was now 18yo) was 17 at the time she reported her stepfather’s actions. Mary kept me updated on all the proceedings.

And what slowly emerged confirmed my suspicions above of a manipulative young woman. Tiffany had kept a diary which found its way into the criminal court case as evidence. In the diary, Tiffany admitted to a secret plan to seduce her stepfather so that she’d have access to his family money. Stepdad fell for her her game and the two apparently had a consensual, sexual cestship for some time. This all came to me from my gf Mary – Tiffany’s mother telling me about the court proceedings.

And in yet another revelation, Tiffany revealed in the diary that she was carrying on a consensual sexual cestship with her stepbrother (stepdad’s son from first marriage) and with her biological brother, too! Apparently all three HS teenagers lived at home and always hung out in the finished basement. And apparently, while the parents were upstairs, the 3 teenagers indulged in lots of ecstasy, alcohol and sexual exploration with each other, all spurred on by Tiffany. Apparently, after Tiffany began sleeping with her stepbrother, he convinced her to sleep with her brother, too. When I came into the picture, the stepbrother had moved out with dad; the bio brother was still a recluse in the basement and Tiffany lived in her bedroom on the top floor of the house. I rarely saw any of the kids when I was visiting Mary even though Tiffany and her brother were in the house still.

By the time my relationship with Mary neared its end, Tiffany’s accusations had unraveled in court in a web of lies, deceit and evidence of a sexually promiscuous and devious young woman with little morals and no boundaries for sexual taboos. At one point, she had been sleeping with her stepfather, stepbrother and brother concurrently! Her mistake was getting pissed at her stepfather when he informed her that his biological son would inherit the family fortune and thinking she could ruin them.

I’m still friends with Mary and I recently bumped into her. She said that Tiffany moved to Europe and teaches… “gratitude” as a “Life Coach”. Mary has a relationship with Tiffany but no relationship with anyone else, including her biological son. I found that disappointing but perhaps, there’s more to the story than I know.

But once again, I had evidence, through my observation, of a cestship among step daughter/sister, stepbrother, brother and step dad. And even though the welfare department had initially deemed it child abuse since she was 17, the legal proceedings proved that Tiffany had initiated the sexual cestship and admitted that it was consensual when she realized she was caught lying. I don’t know if stepdad was ever found guilty due to the revelations. It was all…very interesting.

For me, this was further proof that cestships happen much more frequently than we want to believe in our society. Sometimes it’s driven by romance; sometimes by love, and other times by a need, be it sexual, emotional or… greed.

Until the next episode…

[spilltheteawithme]

AW brings it back to her constantly it’s sad.

What’s even more sad, and kind of scary is the amount of ex gf stalking this woman does. Not just with the Chris but with Seb too. Although AW followed Margarita before she started dating Seb, I don’t think she talked to or interacted with her much. Then the other day AW posts something about snoop, completely out of the blue & unlike her usual posts at all, and today I signed on and guess who else had posted about snoop? Margarita.

Whether this is PR or not, we may never know 💯, but one thing is for certain, I feel bad for any woman Seb dates after her because AW will STALK her which is just sickening. Like girl, don’t you have/want a life of your OWN? Can’t you let go of the past, move the fuck on and make a name of your own? By yourself, for yourself? Seriously, stalking exes new GFs is creep as fuck and shows how mentally unstable she truly is.

!!

[mysteryofloveforevermore]

Dear Charmie Family

Unfortunately freedom of speech doesn’t exist in our world when it comes expressing ourselves freely but I thought I might be able to express my opinion about this subject at least. First of all, I shall mention that I find it hard to believe that Armie had four mistresses or more I didn’t count them when I was reading the article, sorry😅🙈. The main reason that I can’t believe everything that was mentioned in this recent article is that who would take such paparazzi photos with one of their mistresses and being unable to touch them normally and then trying to hide their face in the photos since they are laughing and posing for paps🤔 Also the other woman who first started this terrible show on their IG is obsessed with Timmy and CMBYN, and used to attend cmbyn book tour, premieres and interviews.

Furthermore, how is that you’re so loved by your female costars that the moment they see you they are rushing to hug you and talk you since you always made them feel safe and have always been very respectful to them but suddenly the moment you announce your separation, you’re an a**hole, abusive partner, cheater, drug addict and mentally unstable. I mean how comes you were so normal before and then why creating a finsta the moment the weird show started and then why should you give its password to journalists to write such horrific articles about you. Moreover, those women don’t seem the submissive type at all and all of them want nothing more in life than fame. But obviously the mind behind this mess didn’t want to finalize their divorce since they knew their plan is incomplete if the one who’s guilty in your fake story won’t admit to everything that you wrote, I mean how else could she ruin his life and his career. But I do believe what he said about his childhood, family and committing suicide, anyone else in his situation might have had suicidal thoughts. And lastly why would he become so heartbroken and furious over the fact that his costar was being papped with their fake gf, and mentions fried chicken and NYC (obvious references) if at that time he had a wife and a mistress, that doesn’t make sense to me all. Also isn’t odd that you’re ex wife always got mad when someone commented that you’re so good at playing gay roles and compares being gay to being a criminal and now after you mention that you love kinky sex with women, you should also mention that you’re 100% straight and never had a male lover. Sorry if you don’t agree with what I said, you’re probably right and I’m 100 percent wrong but I just wanted to mention some of my thoughts. I couldn’t resist and I should add these wonderful photos to this post too, gosh I’ve missed those days💙💚

[izzyliker]

kinda obsessed w/ john darnielle Denouncing going to georgia like years later on the grounds of it not fitting his feminism on account of the pov ch being an asshole which is so funny to me like ok you couldn’t tell when you wrote the song? that the guy threatening murder suicide was an asshole? was that a revolutionary feminist breakthrough. realizing that going to georgia the song about a mentally unstable guy driving to his gfs/exs house with a gun was about an asshole dude. listening and learning.

[callipraxia]

So, I’m done with S1 of Clone Wars, and have watched the first two discs of S2. Seems like a good time to check in with some Opinions.

1) this stuff is good. It’s the kind of good where, when there’s a moment that’s obviously written to cater to children and/or executives, those moments actually stick out noticeably. It’s a bit like GF: so good that its flaws stand out more than they should due to all the goodness around them, but in a way, the fact I’m bothering to point these little things out as flaws kind of highlights its excellence.

2) Padme’s design and animation weren’t nearly as awful as anticipated

3) Despite my strong appreciation for the writing and mild compliment to Padme…every other creature and thing on the screen has its moments where it looks almost real. Why, exactly, could they animate literally everything else so well (yes, there’s some moments of blatantly cheap or rushed background animation, but considering the sheer number of backgrounds…see my comments in Remark One) but not avoid making all the human characters look just…off, somehow, without exception, even in the best cases? And why, if they had to choose one actor’s face to be extra-insulting to, did they have to do…that…to Christopher Lee? Forget looking like his actor, Dooku doesn’t even look like a person!

4) more on that awesome writing. One thing I admire about it is how willing they are to let the protagonists fail. Yeah, there’s certain losses we know will be losses ahead of time (any time they think they are close to capturing Dooku or Grievous, for instance), but others run circles around the mains/at least take them to breaking even rather more often than they get ahead, and there was no narrative necessity to those characters. It’s tricky to balance letting your protagonists even partially lose regularly with preserving the audience’s respect for them, but they do it well, especially in such traditionally nuance-lacking genres. It’s quite the accomplishment to pull this off and actually convey the intended theme (that war is tedious and draining and damaging and you lose at least as much as if you win even in the best-case outcome) at all, but especially given the format.

5) It would have been a tad more effective had they started building up a few specific clones more as individuals earlier, but the inclusion of individualized clones and Ahsoka, along with recurring secondary characters (ex. Luminara and Barriss) was very clever - they add *some* tension to those episodes where the outcome is predetermined. Any of them could die, and anyone familiar with Revenge of the Sith knows that it’s very unlikely that Ahsoka will end the show in top form - sure, they *could* have just promoted her to Jedi and pretended she was just still on the Outer Rim when Obi-Wan and Anakin were called back to Coruscant, but considering how unstable Anakin is by the beginning of RotS, it seems more likely for her total absence to be explained by her being dead, MIA, in prison, in exile, turned traitor, or otherwise Not Okay. Separatists killing her in particular could have gone a long way to make it more sympathetic that Palpatine found it so very easy to convince Anakin to take up that job at Decapitation Station.

6) on Anakin’s mental health…knowing the future makes the ending of “Senate Spy” so much sadder. He was a bit of a jealous psycho in that episode as per usual…but it really did seem like all his Issues were firmly oriented in his own insecurities and/or pointed at Mr. Gropey McGroperson there, and he sounded sincere when, at the end, he assured Padme he never doubted her at all. Compare to him at the very beginning of RotS, where he almost lashed out at her because he could sense she was afraid of something and instantly drew the conclusion she was cheating on him. I…do not think he would have had the presence of mind, come RotS, to look past her hugging Rush long enough to notice the disc in her hand that she needed him to retrieve. He’d have just killed them both on the spot.

7) continuing on that theme…possibly an unpopular opinion, but I think Anakin and Padme were always doomed. Probably from the start, all things considered, but definitely after the war started. I started writing an essay here, but realized after I started getting into the ways Padme was in almost as bad of a place as Anakin for getting into a serious relationship when she did that I was exceeding the scope of this list, so I’ll make that its own essay, but…yeah. They were very intense personalities, were very intensely attracted to each other, and their mutual need to save people did less to unite them than to further divide them because of the ways it manifested. They’d have almost certainly divorced even under good circumstances, and the very best-case scenario would have been one where they managed to do so before having children and also managed to do so amicably enough that Padme didn’t feel the need to get a restraining order. Nine times out of ten, even without the war, I suspect she’d have ended up needing the restraining order.

8) on the subject of doomed ships…my gut says that Ahsoka/Barriss was/is a popular one. The part of me that produces things like Interproximal Gradations chapters 11, 12, and 15 also has a feeling there was a General Grievous/Obi-Wan Kenobi fandom at one time, and that not nearly enough of it was strictly limited to hateshipping. If I ever go temporarily insane and stick my toe into Star Wars fic, then I will try my very best to forget that suspicion of mine and, if I slip so far into temporary insanity that I read ship fic there, just stick to Barriss and Ahsoka, thanks. No way they realistically work out either, but as far as I can tell they probably had a better chance of than any other ship in this show.

So yeah. There’s some thoughts on Clone Wars Seasons 1 and 2A.

[oxabyssxo]

i really really wish someone would actually love me forever and not abuse me. not say "see, you made me abuse you! it's your fault!" to me anymore. it's been 15 years of that with 2 different people.

my ex before her genuinely believed that all their abuse to me was neither abuse nor unjustified, because... they were sooo stressed out and unstable due to our life circumstances and due to being asked to do basic, bare minimum adulting and relationship things, like helping out with chores, and being kind to me. so stressed and upset that they just couldn't possibly act like a sane and kind adult towards the person they love the most. makes sense, right?

and my gf until now, was largely the same. whenever she got triggered or felt rejected, suddenly any sort of cold and distant behaviour on her part is justified, our relationship is hopeless and i dont care about her, etc. (rejections which often was as small things as being told "no" for any reason - i started typing up an explanation to why it was okay for me to say "no" sometimes, until i realised that i dont actually have to explain that because it's insanely abusive to get upset with your partner for saying "no" when its reasonable, so i'm saying this instead)

its been completely, completely insane going through this for my whole life. and knowing that these 2 ppl still now justify their insanity and abuse and claim they're not crazy and that it was unavoidable to hurt me for various reasons. they both genuinely think there are no other options than to be an abuser and lie and be insane to protect yourself from having to face that you made these choices when there were other choices, and that it's insane, and that you destroyed another human being's mental health for completely unnecessary reasons which was all preventable and avoidable.

[antipeskantipara]

hi lol this is the ex gf of this account's owner he's. In a mental ward like he needed be for reasons outside of radqueer bs. im not giving up my Tumblr and frankly im only here to trash his acc for him since he'll never need it 🙏🙏 outside of him being mentally unstable he was NOT. A good person to me

otherwise now uh! hope you guys do actually get help you need because, for the years I was in a relationship with pesky he exposed me to weird disgusting people who were just. Jail. he wouldn't let me say jack shit though

im changing the email and pw and throwing it away for him. Get fucking help 🙏 Dont be delusional

[braindeadamerie]

FUCK CANADA

FUCK WHITE PPL

FUCK AMERICA SOUTH AND NORTH AND CENTRAL

FUCK DUDES WHO FUCK THEIR GIRLFIRENEDS IN PUBLIC PLACES WE SEE U FAT ASS

FUCK PEOPLE WITH RED HAIR

FUCK PEOPLE WHO LIVE IN CHICAGO

FUCK PEOPLE WHO WEAR KNU SCHOOL VANS

FUCK PEOPLE EHO HAVE A PRIVATE ACCOUNT ON ANY SOCIAL MEDIA

FUCK PEOPLE WITH EX's

FUCK PEOPLE WHO ARE MENTALLY UNSTABLE YOURE UGLY

FUCK PEOPLE WHO SAY THEYRE GONNA DO SOMETHING THEM DONT

FUCK PEOPLE WHO POST THEIRSELVES TO MYYYYY FAVORITE ARTIST DAT GOT ME THRU DARK TIMES

FUCK PEOPLE WHO HAVE OR HAD AN EATING DISORDER

FUCK PEOPLE WHO TAKE MEDICATION

FUCK PEOPLE WHO DO DRUGS

FUCK PEOPLE WHO CONTINUE TO TOUCH AND GRAB AND CARRESS SOMEONE AFTER THEY SAID THEY DO NOT LIKE BEING TOUCHED

FUCK PEOPLE WHO LISTEN TO MUSIC I OWN MUSIC ITS MINE

FUCK PEOPLE WHO THINK QUEERBAITING IS REAL FUCK UP FAGGOT

FUCK LESBIANS

FUCK LIL VENEZUALEN THOTTIES WHO CANT EVEN SPEAK ENGLISH FUCK YOU AND YOUR BROTHER WHORE

I DIDNT EVEN LIKE U ANYWAY

FUCK CHINITAS

FUCK PEOPLE DAT HAVE THE SAME SHOES AS ME

FUCK PEOPLE WHO MAKE THEIR HAIR THE SAME COLOR AS MINE

FUCK PEOPLE WHO WERE NATURALLY BORN WITH THE SAME HAIR COLOR AS MINE

FUCK PEOPLE WHO ARE LIKE "IM LITERALLY BATMAN " 🤓🤓 UR LITERALLY DIRTY GO WASH UR ASS

FUCK PEOPLE WHO ARE LIKE "TEEHEE IM A MENTALLY UNSTABLE HELLO KITTY GIRL OMG I LOVE HELLO KITTY IM SO CRAZY"

FUCK PEOPLE WHO BREATHE BY ME WHEN THERE IS ROOM TO GO BREATHE SOMEWHERE ELSE

FUCK PEOPLE WHO CALL ME SEXY AND NEVER SPEAK TO ME AGAIN

FUCK PEOPLE WHO HAVE SCOLIOSIS

FUCK CHIROPRACTORS FOR FIXING THE SCOLIOSIS

FUCK THE COLOR ORANGE

FUCK THE COMOR BLACK

FUCK PEOPLE WHO HAVE THE SAME INTERESTS AS MINE DAT I DONT LIKE

FUCK PPL WHO HAVE A GF OR BF AND DEATH STARE AT ME

FUCK PEOPLE WHO SWEAR THEYRE SO IMPORTANT YOURE NOT IMPORTIERT NO ONE IS THINKING AB U BITCH

ill slap u bitch

FUCK PEOPLE WHO DO THINGS IW ANNA DO BUT DO IT BEFORE ME

FUCK PEOPLE WHO DONT USE CONDOMS

FUCK PEOPLE WHO USE CONDOMS BUT DONT THROW THEM AWAY PROPERLY I DONT WANNA SEE DAT

FUCK PEOPLE DAT BEAT THEIR KIDS TO THE POINT WHERE THEY CANT FEEL THEIR FUCKING ASS

FUCK PEOPLE WHO GET THEIR ASS BEAT STAND UP FOR YOURSELF PUNK

FUCK PEOPLE WHO HAVE NATURALLY CURLY HAIR

FUCK PEOPLE IVER SIX FEET

FUCK PEOPLE 5'3 AND UNDER

[ifnotlovepersevering]

nah thas crazy man cos she’s actually in love w me mhmmm

also help so i got ghosted by my ex gf lowkey unbothered by it and now i’ve been kinda just talking to ppl and i was talking to this one girl but she was like mentally unstable and obsessive so nuh uh, and then i was talking to this other girl but i ended up not rlly liking her so now im awkwardly ihnoring her bc im too autistic to know what to do with that situation and now i’m talking to um, 1-3 girls it’s a little unclear, but one of yhem is really cool so uhhh lollllll hopefully i’m lkke demiromantic and not fully aromantic ykwim

-🍪

Um sorry I can’t hear you 👉😊👈

Tbh cookie, in my eyes, there’s no point in having people in your life that don’t make you happy 😌 therefore I’m all for you entertaining your options and only pursuing what you actually like

[delusionalpieceofvoid]

i want her back but at the same time i wanna see her dead